tonight..im bitter at this game for 2..but now your leaving with the taste of my tears as i hold you in the dark and lonely night..count the tears that will fall on your face as if they were yours..i hope they will be all..ill leave my mark on you..you branded my heart with your tender love and care..my mission..ill consider it to be a delay till further notice..but further seems forever..until that day im scarred..the scar in the back of my head..burned, painted, prinited, placed upon my vision..this is fake..you will be the first i see in when i wake up in the morning..and the last before i close my eyes..and dream of you..but my heart cries..as my face smiles..my heart cries..next time i hope its you crying along with me..ill choke on your tears..but still be there to help me breath..becuase now..i cant rememer too..but with my last shortage of breath..ill apologize for ever to make cry..as my vision dies out like the lit moon that watches over us..ill see myself in your tears..falling..here i go..as i acknowledge my existence before i go..i say one more..ill be waiting for you..you know where to find me..here i go as my farewell..for now.................................

 take this letter to your grave..as you read it while your laying in your coffin alive..try to understand that you wont be able to unless you have light..like how you wont see me anymore till you see the shine of dawn..the paper will be moist as your body warms..your gasping for air as tears run down your face as if it were a race..as it runs down cheeks it will remind you of how i wiped it off your face and made everything right..but you will see that it wont be the same..your own hands that buried this soul into the ground will be the only factor to what you created..as you lay in your bed..you wont feel me next to you as the soil covers you..the blanket of dirt that covers you..is it the same as the sheets that buried us as we intertwined and spoke of eachothers hearts..now you will sleep alone..if you live to your last breath in your bed..in your waking moment of truth..will you apologize for not having another continue..and scream i love you..or will the agony be too much to bare as you wimper in the nights of darkenss..if you ever get out..ill recite this for you..to ever know that i will always be there..to me to you..theres only 1 continue..

this will be my greatest fall..or my greatest victory..three's a charm..but it takes 2 to tango..you must have 2 in a relationship..something i lack..someone to call mine..i think today will be my victory..we lay next to eachother..our arms are tangled..and our legs entwined..the smooth touch across my face..a feeling i will endure..for the first time i felt a lovers lips upon mine..i know now..she is vulnerable..or she is true..for the first night..i spill my heart to you..my dear friend you help me in what i must do..i take this chance..and it wont slip away..my words crush my heart but they capture yours..please dont leave..i need you..and i want you..**** *** ** *** **** **..this night its the first time in a long time..i recieve something positive..and now i have you to call mine..i like you and i will never hurt you..do the same for me and i hope we'll stay together forever..ugh..i cant take my actions..my wrongings..in this game for 2..i cheated my way out and now i lost with nothing left to offer..and now i want you back..im back to where i was before we ever became 1..how stupid can i be..the loss of a loved one..the pain endures my heart every waking moment i see your face..i regret every single thing..you dont believe me but i am telling the truth..i pray every night that one day you can give me another chance..ill tell you..we were next to eachother the feel of a lovers lips upon mine..but today it wasnt yours..it was a far away friend..the torment i have caused..i cannot make up for..ill take this to my grave..bury me in memories of you..every moment spent with you..conceil me in my room..let me rest in peace as i cry myself to sleep..tonight i dreamt a dream..the dream has come true..but my dreams dont seem to last that long..what lies in front of me now is confusion and loneliness..whats left of me now..i could live with you to call mine..but i cant picture you by my side..ill take every lie with me and you can come to my room..dig me up from my shame..open my casket..and give me another chance to live in your arms..but will you come in simpathy for me..or come for happiness one last time..

today i compete for the gold..but its different..its no longer a battle of charm..its a race of love..i have my eye on the gold and i could see clearly that the gold has its eye on my opponent..i start out far from then end..i could barely see the purpose..but as i get closer my vision gets better..as im getting closer to the end..i stumble and fall..thinking way too much on the prize and not on what i am doing..as i cross the finish line..the dirt and blood was painted on my face as if my shame was something to look at..the tears i shed are now my enemy..its blurring my vision and i can no longer see what i was racing for but i did see that i lost..how would i know if it was worth the hard work..was it worth every drop of sweat..every tear that shed..every time my fragile body hit the unmarked track..i lost this time..i didnt come in last place..i came in 2nd out of 2..as i my vision cleared up..i saw the prize..i was asked,"the race has been over for over an hour? why are you still panting?" i stayed silent..but i knew that it wasnt the race..it was the beauty that stood in front of me..it took my breath away..i saw that it was worth every part i took part took place in the race..now im not going to let a chance like this slip away so easy..